Talk about love~

Talk about love....I am so eager to have it...but i dont have chance or i shall say i dun make a opportunity for myelf...Love is a deep word,but mostly,it is sweet and memorable too.... Im loyal to treat my love,but now i still a single..... Everyone may hv been regreted ,felt depressed before,made a wrong decision and all that.... Actually, im gutless to converse with HER~u know la.... u know why? because every time i greet her,she gives me a weird responses. Not just that, i found myself acting unnaturally,become a quiet person ,the rate of my heart beat increases and arhh.... that kinda feeling is really strong to me,whenever i see her, look into her eyes ...... i really desire to understand her ,pamper her like a baby,concern about her and be there whenever she needs me.... i wanted to burst out from this miracle and make it appear to be true....really.. i must do this before im too little too late.. Hey,do u ever think that after we graduate,we may lost contact with our best friends as they will pursue on their own dream,maybe all of us will change mentally or in themself---personality according to the flow of time and revolution... Lately,my mum contributed some good advices that changed my way of thinking completely...We must be cherish for now for our friendship,we must forget all the enmity in your heart and be open-minded.. Thus, happy always and feel contented always...Then,my soul started to make me think that 'it wont work if u juz keep do nothing'... So, in spite of making myself happier,i also wanted to make her feels the same as i feel...
I really hv the feeling of affection upon her since the rumour hv spread out and it happened in the middle-year of 2005..And for this, i dont really expect my feeling to her will gain stronger and strong through year by year,month by month and day by day.... i know,i dun talk with her face to face much... but every time i hope her will happy and enjoy her life.. i wish and pray for her everyday..hope the best for her.. i love her...
Last year,after i heard some words that really hurted me so deep from her,i had a fever then i went home from school... i vomited,i dropped my tears,suffer from head and tummy-ache . Gosh!!! i hv a fever just because of the words that came out from her,a high fever indeed. I really felt so bad on tat day after i heard the words...I changed my status from active to sick... i really like her so much...Hope she'll feel it..