Talk about love~

Talk about love....I am so eager to have it...but i dont have chance or i shall say i dun make a opportunity for myelf...Love is a deep word,but mostly,it is sweet and memorable too.... Im loyal to treat my love,but now i still a single..... Everyone may hv been regreted ,felt depressed before,made a wrong decision and all that.... Actually, im gutless to converse with HER~u know la.... u know why? because every time i greet her,she gives me a weird responses. Not just that, i found myself acting unnaturally,become a quiet person ,the rate of my heart beat increases and arhh.... that kinda feeling is really strong to me,whenever i see her, look into her eyes ...... i really desire to understand her ,pamper her like a baby,concern about her and be there whenever she needs me.... i wanted to burst out from this miracle and make it appear to be true....really.. i must do this before im too little too late.. Hey,do u ever think that after we graduate,we may lost contact with our best friends as they will pursue on their own dream,maybe all of us will change mentally or in themself---personality according to the flow of time and revolution... Lately,my mum contributed some good advices that changed my way of thinking completely...We must be cherish for now for our friendship,we must forget all the enmity in your heart and be open-minded.. Thus, happy always and feel contented always...Then,my soul started to make me think that 'it wont work if u juz keep do nothing'... So, in spite of making myself happier,i also wanted to make her feels the same as i feel...
I really hv the feeling of affection upon her since the rumour hv spread out and it happened in the middle-year of 2005..And for this, i dont really expect my feeling to her will gain stronger and strong through year by year,month by month and day by day.... i know,i dun talk with her face to face much... but every time i hope her will happy and enjoy her life.. i wish and pray for her everyday..hope the best for her.. i love her...
Last year,after i heard some words that really hurted me so deep from her,i had a fever then i went home from school... i vomited,i dropped my tears,suffer from head and tummy-ache . Gosh!!! i hv a fever just because of the words that came out from her,a high fever indeed. I really felt so bad on tat day after i heard the words...I changed my status from active to sick... i really like her so much...Hope she'll feel it..

Sometimes, they are silly to make that decision... They think about the wrong way ang they have a wrong preassumption indeed... They possessed a big size body n height which i never have...What can i do?Maybe just wish them because its their gift from 'The Creator'.It is their loss to make wrong decision and i wont blame others, i know this is just all i have..and i have a strong spirit which tells me to perform better, be tougher,harder instead of harsh.....Every time,i do my best... Maybe my height is the main barrier to obstruct me to be in the list of my 'head'......I wont blame him, i know he always make the right decision ,but just sometimes....not this time...he'll regret for this... And recently,i dont feel right for everything, something......just not right to me.....just kinda feeling to me, Sad?Happy?Shock?Freaky?Dejected? i duno what actually hv happened to me....I demanded myself to treat all this weird feelings possitively...Im a weird person right? Till now,messages that i have posted is all sad things of me...and i expressed it with real feelings through out my heart...I really hope everything will be in a revolution soon......Dont worry...be happy.... hope everyone happy always... give some comment bout what i've written here...thanks...

What does friendship mean to you?

To me seriously, friendship is really important . A good friend is a person you know well and regard with affection and trust.What is friendship to you? What are your standards and requirements, and what is your value system for friendship? What do you feel you owe a friend, and what do you feel a friend owes you? A true friend is someone who loves and supports you, who tells you the truth and is also willing to listen to the truth.Friends will welcome each other's company and exhibit loyalty towards each other. Their tastes will usually be similar and may converge, and they will share enjoyable activities. They will also engage in mutually helping issues, such as exchange of advice and the sharing of hardship. Sometimes, friends will use u and try to use and try to take benifits from u... Think of ur friends....how they look like ?......u'll know eventually....

About me..........^^

First of all, im a boy...an ordinary boy with a simple life in a developing town.... Sometimes, i feel so tiny in basketball court and the great feeling of inferiority in me boost out from my heart that makes me so sad and envy others' body size....sometimes,i'm a freak person as my attitude changes randomly and sometimes i dont communicate with my friends correctly instead just make something worser. I'm really scare to make mistakes in every aspect and mostly in my friendship....duno y...